There Will Come a Time When You Feel Like Everything is Finished. That Will Be The Beginning

Name: Caitlin
City: Sacramento, CA
Saturn Cycle: Saturn Return in Scorpio (Saturn is also conjunct Pluto and opposing Venus)
Born: 1983

The day that my Saturn Return was exact, was the day I fled my home and moved into a domestic violence safe house with my three children. I was 29.

 I always thought my Saturn Return would be easy or straightforward for me. After all, I was familiar with astrology, had a healthy relationship with Saturn and with my own father (I thought) whom I admired.

Yes, my marriage was falling apart, but I was in denial about it. After all, the number one most important thing to me in my whole life was that my children would grow up in an unbroken, intact family, with both their parents-- something I had always wished I had experienced for myself.

Letting Go

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By Annie from Perth, WA

 I'm 28 and I've just come to the realisation over the past mammoth few weeks, that yep... my Saturn Return in Scorpio has come, and it is demanding quite a grand welcoming.

Its been grotesque in all its glory. At first I didn't cotton on to what was happening to me. I was feeling tremendous amounts of torment and guilt from past mistakes I made. I thought I was feeling this way because I couldn't bare to live with the guilt and shame, so instead I offered up my honesty of past mistakes to the person I love the most and that just created a new world of pain, torment and guilt that came flooding my way.

Making Peace With My Saturn Return

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By Anon from Denver, US

If there is one thing I wish I knew four years ago, it is the phenomenon of the Saturn Return. It all began with a car crash and slowly every area of my life got sucked into a downward spiral.

If I knew such a thing as a Saturn Return existed, I would have been better prepared for it.

Death of the Old Ways
When it began I saw everything I had built start to disintegrate. I had to make some hard choices. I took a hard hit when it came to finances, career and friendships.

Since my Saturn Return began I was living with high anxiety, fear, low self-worth, regret and many negative feelings.

My Wondrous Saturn Return

By Anon from Philadelphia, US

I thought I'd never say this after reading all the negative things about a first Saturn Return, but I'm loving it so far!

I'm currently undergoing a few wicked transits that would make anybody shudder: I have transiting Saturn coming over my natal Pluto, Saturn AND Midheaven. Natal Saturn is in the 10th, with both it and Pluto conjunct my Midheaven.

Saturn Return Ground Floor - Time to Come Out

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By Anon from United States

My natal Saturn is at 0° Scorpio. Saturn is about to enter Scorpio. As I write this, I am roughly a two and a half days away from Saturn making its exact conjunction, and part of me wonders if that means my life is about to fall apart.

Too Many Changes

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by Contributor

I'm Brazilian, and I'm going through my Saturn Return. I´ve always been afraid of this moment.

I'll try to explain what is happening and give you an idea of how Saturn is manifesting in my life.

Everything is different.

1. My parents are getting divorced after a 35 years.

Double Dose of Saturn

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by Contributor

Hello, I have a Libra Sun but I was born with Saturn in Scorpio, so instead of having two and a half years of Saturn's medicine, I'm preparing for having 5 years of it.

I got married just before Saturn entered in Libra in 2009. It was like I was yearning for love and discipline before I met him. I moved from my country to his, without knowing how to speak his language, without diplomas - which would allow me to search for as good a job as I had before - and I said goodbye to my family and friends.

Where do I begin?

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by Contributor

In early 2009 I fell pregnant for a third time. I'd been with my abusive husband for 12 years and though I love my first two dearly this third pregnancy made me realise I didn't want my husband and his controlling ways anymore.

Had to get out and this new baby was a scary development. Sadly I miscarried and my husband blamed me - said my negativity caused the loss.

It was then that I relished that I no longer loved him, he was cruel, heartless, mean and needy all in one.